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So i'm venturing into the world of bloggers only to get denied because of my content ...I thought blogs were personal detailed accounts of ones life now their making millions trying to tell people to express themselves...now that don't work for me usually but, i'm willing to give it a shot to see what comes of it.

Thinking

I'm thinking of a time simpler than this i'm thinking of a day where I will feel no pain i'm thinking of a day where i'm consumed with joy i'm thinking of the day when the world stops and all I see is you i'm thinking of the day when God joins us as one i'm thinking of a the day when we won't just stare into each others eyes in frustration but will come together as one with great love, and appreciation for one another i'm thinking of a simpler time when our love will be all we need to take us to the top.

I haven't been able to write a entry in a while ( due to vacation) but  this morning I woke up inspired to complete this entry and continue, the pursuit of encouraging others to open their lifes to all life has to offer in order to, learn and self improve.

Change

I read something pretty interesting on twitter today, it said ”people will go their entire life, trying to change a person that God didn't even put on earth for them”. Now, how true is that how many of us, have a friend or significant other that we've tried to show the ”light” ...what if your the thing actually hindering them from their destiny ....are you selfless enough to let them go and become who God planned for them to be without you?...I think this is the hardest but rarest form of love letting someone go so that they can live ...with that.happy blogging, be blessed !!

Reflection!

Life has been so crazy haven't even had time to sit and write. My two weeks as a substitute teacher are finally up..I see the light at the end of the tunnel, freedom, the peak of the.weekend as Friday rolls around the corner its that.time when we can finally reflect on the week we've had and where we go from here. This Week may have not been a highlight.in my life but I wouldn't.change it for the world cause through all hard times is an even greater lesson. I'm a better person even with the.strike of aunt flow lol I've been able to look outside myself and reflect and.grow and transform. I learned more than ever that I am human but through  Gods mercy and grace I will make it...and so with that said don't forget to put him.first before all else happy blogging and be blessed :-)

Money =2% of life ...what!!!

This past week my cousin came to visit for the first time. That's not the real reason I haven't been blogging but I'll talk about that later. First I want to express how my cousin changed my world in 2 days. We were in line at  Knotts for the fourth of July and my cousins talking to my younger brother about 2% and of course I want to be apart of the conversation. So I interject ” what is 2%?”  and he says money is only 2% of our life...ummm what in Nigeria or America, he tells me everywhere so I ask about the other 98% and, he quickly tells me 98% is the individual journey you choose to take.....oh dang and he proceeds to tell me so many people look up at, money  and submit to it but we should be looking down at money demanding it. Wow !!
With that happy blogging and be blessed :)

Fake Boyfriend

So once people reach a certain age all around them they see weddings, and babies. Most of my cousins that are around the same age, or younger than me have babies and it seems like everyone has a significant other or are married. Then there is me, my family looks at me and they give me one of those looks that speaks a thousand words. People look at me and ask me do you have a boyfriend and I laugh to myself and answer then with a simple NO. Sometimes I just want to yell at them, and tell them at the moment I do not want that. Honestly, I am not ready for that type of commitment, or interested in dealing with a fool (hahaha I know I know not all guys are like this, but the male figures around me prove otherwise). I guess I just want to focus on my career and on myself, and I am not ready to give up my life to make another person happy. Then again I have this warped view of relationships by what I have gone through in life. Also, I do not want to be with someone and give up soo much of myself to end up being called a NAGGER. Yes the nerve people have now a days, my friend told me of how her bf called her a nagger, for wanting what she deserved after he forgot her birthday. In this age guys expect a lot from women to give up a lot, to be there unconditionally, while they feel like they do not have to move a finger for their significant other. It is a cycle where mistakes are made again, again, and again; where they do not see their own mistakes and flaws BUT they constantly point out what is wrong with their significant other. What I am trying to say that I guess I might be a tad selfish and I just do not want to deal with someone who will point a finger at me for wanting what I deserve, for being there unconditionally. Don't get me wrong I am not a guy hater or totally agains love, but at one point or the other we have to look out for ourselves and do what is bet for us even if we end up leaving people behind. So moral of the story treat your significant other right, or you might be left in the dust.
-Love E

Family

So this weekend my family and I went to my cousins baby shower, and I was pretty excited but hesitant  to go. Sometimes our judgment is clouded by experiences that happened in the past, and that is what I have been holding on to for the longest. There was so much resentment in me because of the way I was treated by my family, and it really made me bitter about my family at times. However, I learned that people do weird things because of their customs or because they feel it is the right thing to do. It was amazing to see my family after all these years and leave that resentment behind, and enjoy the sweet gift of life. Sometimes we have to be the better person and leave the past in the past and write a new future for the future generation so they won't make the same mistakes we have made. It is amazing to see all these new additions to the family and all the LOVE that they give us with no prejudice or judgment. They look at us with innocent eyes, and yearn for us to hold them, and love them. That is why I want to leave the past behind, and write a new chapter for the future of my nieces, nephews, cousins...because it is important to set that example for them, so they can see the change that they can do in this future. Let Go, and Let God.

-Love E