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So i'm venturing into the world of bloggers only to get denied because of my content ...I thought blogs were personal detailed accounts of ones life now their making millions trying to tell people to express themselves...now that don't work for me usually but, i'm willing to give it a shot to see what comes of it.

No Niños, Quiero Un Hombre!

La noche pasado escuche a mi a amiga, after being tortured by someone (who shall not, be named) drenching us with their gibberish and irrevalant discussions, my friend suddenly turned, to me and, said quiero un hombre no quiero niños...I mean come on, do I really have to explain... It's as simple as it translates. No matter how many times we've been ran over, screwed over, abused and misused there's something within every man or women that longs for that companion to make them feel whole again ...complete. Oh so you probably think I'm going to tell you keep believing, and ...I am. You probably think I'm going to tell you to seek God first above all else, and everything will fall into place according to his perfect will and...I am. You even probably already assumed I would tell you, to completely love yourself (does not mean be conceited) because when two whole people come together they can focus on their relationship as a couple without dealing with ”trying to fix each other” and ...I am. That baloney never flies...I hear too many people telling me their significant other broke up with them cause they wanted to "do them”. Yea hello cause they have no idea who they are first of all, over half the time. Anyways my point, simply reverts back to this ”quiero un hombre”, you can want a man;all you want but want God more, seek after becoming a the best version of yourself, so that when you meet that person that makes your butterflies soar you won't be fixing each other you'll be standing strong as one.
*take a second out of your day and think of one thing that can make you better (not, your sister, brother, friend...you) and focus on trying to become the person your looking for is looking for. Be blessed :)

No Judgement!!

How can you try and fix others if you're broke? Actually stop trying to fix others and learn to let others grow and do the same and you'll begin to see you're life in light of others and become the best version of you.
Be blessed :)

Time Out

Some days do you just sit and wonder when will I get my big break, doesn't life get easier, why do I have to go through this but the real questions you should be asking yourself is how can God be so amazing to have put so many awesome people in your life to guide you, to love and show you that life is worth living. Everyday we wake up we forget to notice the precious things in life that brought us this far and made us who we are we forget to take time to realize the beauty that surrounds us and the simple things we've been blessed with. Everyday til' I graduate I have made it my mission to get up everyday positive ready to start the day rain or shine. I plan to be happy and not defeated by the obstacles of the world. I was watching behind the music with Jennifer Hudson and it just renewed my passion to seek God first in everything I do and everything will work according to his "riches and glory." My faith has carried me this far and I know will always be there to catch me when I fall and cheer me on in my triumphs.
This a new me and this is my new beginning!
#winning lmao

Their Perspective

...So I was sitting at our school commons minding my own business with the home girl (actually not minding my own business but i tried) anyways and I hear some guy rantting and raving pouring out his heart felt emotions on the poor deaf ears of a girl who just wanted to eat her pasta lol. Well before I crack on the poor boy let me tell you what my ease droppin ears caught on to.."boys have feelings" who knew I mean why do they hide them? Why does it take some drastic act of God to bring out the person we try to see for days, months, years? I mean how can I feel bad for you when you wait til' the girl has left your crack for something better for you to come pouring out your emotions cause you lost that one thing that actually made you feel like a person of worth I mean where will you ever find that person with her smile, personality or swagger? But I mean I do get one thing that he said were only 20 I mean its like 20 is the new 10 we think that were so young that we can't obtain this level of commitment to anything but honestly if you can't commit now when will the time ever be right? Get it together? She cheated on you ...if you knew the one ”ya way shalom” you wouldnt be stuck pouring out salty crocidile tears over a girl whose already found a new car to park in her garage. Yes I said it!! She ain't coming back but that don't mean that its the end of the world my nigga it's just the beginning...now that she has given you your wings back, soar to your potential...I think with girls we get so caught up in talk about ya'll that we forget that life is full of so much more than just hotdogs and sixpacks theres a whole world out there ready for us to obtain
Be blessed :)

Truth Be Told

...lol so I am sitting here really studying






...lol so I am sitting here really studying for my test but all I can think about it how bad I want to write and express the joys that I truly feel this whole weekend. I mean seriously has anyone ever been to cloud 9 cause I swear it's not really a cloud but this fantasy that everyone goes to one time or another in their lives where everything is perfect, where nothing else matter, but you and the crackhead on the cloud...that's the best way I can explain it. I just don't know any other way to explain smiling so hard my face hurts not caring about the people trying to slander you with their petty Facebook or aim statuses cause truly only GOD knows me and then sum up such a great weekend (even though I couldn't go to church, GOD forgive me lol). I have a friend that I can truly say her true beauty shines from the inside and out and she always keeps it 100, telling me straight out how it is and it is interesting cause she tells me everything that other people would rather whisper behind my back but I appreciate everything about here because she just keeps (random: being an RA is just too real had to run out at 3am pushing 4am to a boy throwing up and ambulance and police where everywhere definitely too real) but continuing my home girl that I have known since summer 07' continues to keep me grounded and is always reminding me of who I promised myself to be and who I really am she gave me this ticket the other day that read: Ticket for an awesome friend (and on the back it said) because it takes a real person to know the depth of your personality and true friendship...and I couldn't agree more and the truth is she is more than a true friend to me has become my sister so I want her to know that even thought we lost someone very special to both of is I think everything happens for a reason cause it has only brought us closer together she is a beautiful person on the inside and out and she will get the best out of life because that's what God has in stone for her as she continues to seek him first that's why I agree with her completely when she says "to all the couples out there the 'love' you have may not be forever, but the love that God had for you is and always will be forever." Because the truth is even though God has created man and woman for each other if we don't remember to keep him first in everything relationships, school, our daily walk then how can we flourish without him...we all need a reality check sometimes and for me sometimes more often than other's that's why I am blessed that even with my multiple personalities she continues to stay true and keep it real with me, that's what I miss not having my friends back home but home is anywhere you create a positive environment and I think I am starting to understand hot to shake the negative and hold on to all the beauty and splendor life had to offer: To my friend, sister, and confidant you have touched me with your light, you have amazed me by your strength and your love for our KING of KINGS continues to inspire me to be a better person and I simply say thank you, never let anyone blow out the light God continues to ignite en tu vida, much luv girl (this is my response to your FB message lol)

Why?

...ok so let me start by saying sorry to everyone offended by my last post and its vulgar language....lol SIKE pls this is a blog I ain't sorry for nothing if you can't handle what I got to say keep your eyes off my blog lol jk I love ya'll. On a serious note today was a challenging day in particular because I just wanted to go all types of black on people but thank GOD for his discernment and grace that he continues to give me when I just want to go to town on some people in particular that could really use some tongue lashing (yea...lol that sounded like a grandma) but real talk I don't know why people think I am quiet? I don't know why people think it's okay to say whatever they want without consequences (or getting popped in the face)? Like seriously I don't know why people think it's all gravy to stomp all over your emotions and eat your heart up raw? like ...SERIOUSLY just why? Are you not human, do you not have a heart ? Or a nice bone in your body...now don't play me I am no angel but god forbid that I don't think about people before I speak or act like my true self. I'm starting to think that everyone needs a blog because I think people have taken acting real instead of fake to a whole new level some people need to vent their real self on blogs and leave it there ...hence the start of this blog lol seriously I don't want to see your muff a** true self sometimes being fake is what some people need to do cause their personalities are just too much that's just my opinion ...I mean unless you are apart of the exclusive club DSU I ain't got time for your true self high key I ain't perfect and my true self is even too much for me to handle that's why when I pray instead of just praying for everything and everybody under the sky I pray for my own self cause I got issues just like the next person, but high key this blog was meant to smack talk but I just realized that smack talkin is a WASTE of my time and a waste of yours so get over yourself if someone dont like you. Oh well that means you got someone better waiting around the corner to be a better friend/significant other, or whatever lol but seriously like my mom told me today just kick rocks and show the haters your 32's (teeth lol...i know dont that sound gangster...shh my moms a G lol) and keep it pushing and remember keep him closer than anyone. God always gots your back so right now I let GO and am lettin GOD ...you should do the same much luv.