Blinded B-)

How could I be so blind? Blinded by the bling, the sweet treats, and everything in between the sheets; that take my breath away and keep me gasping for air. How can I be so blind to the sweet talk and swag walk I so potently condemn? How does one smile melt my heart in seconds and suddenly the past turns into dust...how is it that we are blinded by these things that are only meant to distract from the real issues before saying "I do" maybe these distractions help us from making things seem bigger than they really are? Maybe these blinders assure us that we are loved and tomorrows a new day? Or they just finally figured that sorry is not enough...whatever it is the blinders worked and I'm glad
because I truly do love my special man and it just goes to show you I'm human. However don't be fooled by my foolish writing this love is the same as blind love cause one day we'll look back and the jewelry will be dull and sweets digested so don't get caught up cause you may just end up with a ”love hangover” (jason derulo) and find yourself alone. Take care of yourself and Be Blessed :)

True Friendship

I have come across this quote quite a few times, "we are able to be apart for months or years at a time, but when we get back together, it's as if nothing has changed" that is how I felt after seeing some of my closest friends after not seeing them close to a year. It is really amazing to see the strong bonds that we as people form with strangers when we are off to college. We all went through this journey that was new to all of us and experienced situations that were completely new to us, where we lost, and gained friends. Seeing all my friends after a long time made me realize that I am very fortunate to have this great support system that is behind me 100% and I am not alone no matter what is going on. However, not all people are as fortunate as I am in the friend department, there are those friends who cannot stand to see their friends succeed and try to make every situation about themselves. One thing that I sometimes do not comprehend is why are people like that? Why do  they feel the need to bring their friends down because they are not succeeding in life, and their friends are. It just amazes me that no matter the outcome there will always be those friends who will always be there to bring down people, and will make people not talk about their bright future. I guess if I were in that situation I would kind of feel down because I'd be stuck in the same place, while my friends where progressing in their studies, career, etc. but that does not give me any type of right to bring everyone down with me. I know how it feels to be in limbo on not know what is going to happen or not having something set in stone for the future, but what separates me from those other types of friends is that I took all the advice I could from friends who were succeeding and I was genuinely happy for all their fortunes. After I graduated from UCR, I knew that I had to go to grad school for what I wanted to do, but I felt that my gpa was too low to be accepted to any program. But having the support from all the great friends that I have, and having faith in God and knowing that he would provide that I finally was accepted into grad school. I believe it is always important to have friends that are there for you no matter what, the type of friends who are happy for you when you are succeeding, and who are willing to give you a shoulder to cry on when you need it. So I guess what I am trying to say is the moment you find that true friendship hold on to it, and never let go haha. Seriously though only true friends are willing to let go of the past and move forward and forgive and forget of the things that at one point may have drove you apart. On that note be nice to people because you never know what role an individual may have in changing your life.

-Love E

Brand New??

I want to have a positive contribution to women, girls, boys, men, and especially the up and coming generation. I am not satisfied with merely being complacent while people are out there hustling everyday to achieve their dream through whatever means possible whether it's becoming the next Top Chef, or a world famous make-up artist, ALL of our dreams matter. However, this isn't just about the rat race, and dream chasers but the biggest issue I see affecting most young and old people are relationships!! Have you ever gone through something and felt like no one in the world understood what you were going through or has gone through your UNIQUE experience? Well I'm here to tell you that you are NOT alone...being in a relationship, and hearing insane stories from friends, acquaintances, and strangers I have realized a need and healing in allowing people to unload their stories on me without bias or judgment and I want to share these stories (of course not with the names and exact details) but to build a community blog where people can realize they are not alone. Through faith and hope the dreaded four letter word L-O-V-E is possible if you are willing, to open your heart and have faith that God has your back so Let Go and Let God. Our futures are bright cause he has already destined us for greatness. These are some clear and scattered questions I hope to address with this blog. What will we choose to believe?? What will you journey be?? Who will you allow to impact or detract you from your goals? Do you have goals? Are they realistic? Long-term? Short-term? Are you giving yourself, time to heal after a break up?? (Yes, HEAL how can you start a new relationships without learning and accepting the past??) How did you grow after the breakup?? Have you given up one love?? How about those of us in relationships? Does your relationship "just work""?? Is there progress towards a future?? Are you both willing to compromise?? Do you allow each other their independence while growing together?? What is love to you?? These are just few questions I get asked and have heard other people ask however this blog will NOT provide the answers but pray it provides clarity and hope that your knight in shining armor, or queen (not trophy wife) IS out there. With that said welcome and please feel free to contribute and share your stories and happy blogging :)

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Wonder??!!??

I wonder do you think of me? Cause I think about the years I have invested the time emotion and energy and wonder is it worth, it is it worth it to sweat, cry, pant and want to share your life with someone. It is, it's worth it when you find that person that completes you that has become your everything and more without them that other half that soulmate most of us feel lost confused and alone but God hasn't created us to be alone he has already ordained that person that will radically change the course of our life forever it's up to us to make the decision between the ones that stay and make us radically change for the better and those that only bring ya down we have. We make it our prerogative to want more and demand it for we deserve nothing less than the best I sit here wondering how I know all this and remain stuck then I remember I'm apart of real life and it just so happens just cause I write it doesn't mean I don't live it my teachers all throughout college always told me I could write but that I had to stop writing like a journal but I couldn't help it I like to express my thoughts and emotions through this style of writing it makes me who I am so why have I let people redefine me. I don't want to get back to who was, I just want to move on from here to become the beat me and the first step I have taken is loving myself and the skin I'm in.
Blessings.... :)

Smile

There's a song I heard recently by Kirk Franklin that goes something like this; through the rainy days and blue skies SMILE even though it hurts, SMILE cause today's a new day and waking up today I couldn't help but Smile. Like Tyrese mentioned in his new book the past is behind you today you have the choice to live, thrive be positive, and go after the things you want in life. God is just too good and merciful he will never leave or forsake you but we are truly our own worse enemy instead of waking up ready, we wake up already feeling defeated and blue because of something that happen yesterday. Well I come to tell you yesterday ain't coming back but today right now with the future minutes ahead of you you can and will be great if you can just chose to Smile cause "today's a new day". :)
Be blessed ....

Mind Over Matter

I don't know what it is but right now I'm at peace. I'm at peace with knowing that even though my future is not set in stone my mind is right and my heart is ready to absorb. Ugh well this blog will have to wait at the current moment I am distracted by my bf and his friend muff to be continued..

Train Ride Home!!

On the train headed back home to sleep and prepare for an epic spring break. Too juiced and excited for the adventure that awaits ahead; my future, my destiny, my purpose. Ready for me to obtain within my grasp, whose takin the ride with me? Only time shall tell ... been on this ride for a minute trying to figure out the true meaning of love from all angles. I have truly learned and grown through every rollercoaster and triumph I can only imagine what God has in store for me as I continue to seek him first and understand him more and more everyday. As everyday gets closer and closer to graduation I affirm the things that I seek in life.