Wonder??!!??

I wonder do you think of me? Cause I think about the years I have invested the time emotion and energy and wonder is it worth, it is it worth it to sweat, cry, pant and want to share your life with someone. It is, it's worth it when you find that person that completes you that has become your everything and more without them that other half that soulmate most of us feel lost confused and alone but God hasn't created us to be alone he has already ordained that person that will radically change the course of our life forever it's up to us to make the decision between the ones that stay and make us radically change for the better and those that only bring ya down we have. We make it our prerogative to want more and demand it for we deserve nothing less than the best I sit here wondering how I know all this and remain stuck then I remember I'm apart of real life and it just so happens just cause I write it doesn't mean I don't live it my teachers all throughout college always told me I could write but that I had to stop writing like a journal but I couldn't help it I like to express my thoughts and emotions through this style of writing it makes me who I am so why have I let people redefine me. I don't want to get back to who was, I just want to move on from here to become the beat me and the first step I have taken is loving myself and the skin I'm in.
Blessings.... :)