True Friendship

I have come across this quote quite a few times, "we are able to be apart for months or years at a time, but when we get back together, it's as if nothing has changed" that is how I felt after seeing some of my closest friends after not seeing them close to a year. It is really amazing to see the strong bonds that we as people form with strangers when we are off to college. We all went through this journey that was new to all of us and experienced situations that were completely new to us, where we lost, and gained friends. Seeing all my friends after a long time made me realize that I am very fortunate to have this great support system that is behind me 100% and I am not alone no matter what is going on. However, not all people are as fortunate as I am in the friend department, there are those friends who cannot stand to see their friends succeed and try to make every situation about themselves. One thing that I sometimes do not comprehend is why are people like that? Why do  they feel the need to bring their friends down because they are not succeeding in life, and their friends are. It just amazes me that no matter the outcome there will always be those friends who will always be there to bring down people, and will make people not talk about their bright future. I guess if I were in that situation I would kind of feel down because I'd be stuck in the same place, while my friends where progressing in their studies, career, etc. but that does not give me any type of right to bring everyone down with me. I know how it feels to be in limbo on not know what is going to happen or not having something set in stone for the future, but what separates me from those other types of friends is that I took all the advice I could from friends who were succeeding and I was genuinely happy for all their fortunes. After I graduated from UCR, I knew that I had to go to grad school for what I wanted to do, but I felt that my gpa was too low to be accepted to any program. But having the support from all the great friends that I have, and having faith in God and knowing that he would provide that I finally was accepted into grad school. I believe it is always important to have friends that are there for you no matter what, the type of friends who are happy for you when you are succeeding, and who are willing to give you a shoulder to cry on when you need it. So I guess what I am trying to say is the moment you find that true friendship hold on to it, and never let go haha. Seriously though only true friends are willing to let go of the past and move forward and forgive and forget of the things that at one point may have drove you apart. On that note be nice to people because you never know what role an individual may have in changing your life.

-Love E

Smile

There's a song I heard recently by Kirk Franklin that goes something like this; through the rainy days and blue skies SMILE even though it hurts, SMILE cause today's a new day and waking up today I couldn't help but Smile. Like Tyrese mentioned in his new book the past is behind you today you have the choice to live, thrive be positive, and go after the things you want in life. God is just too good and merciful he will never leave or forsake you but we are truly our own worse enemy instead of waking up ready, we wake up already feeling defeated and blue because of something that happen yesterday. Well I come to tell you yesterday ain't coming back but today right now with the future minutes ahead of you you can and will be great if you can just chose to Smile cause "today's a new day". :)
Be blessed ....

Time Out

Some days do you just sit and wonder when will I get my big break, doesn't life get easier, why do I have to go through this but the real questions you should be asking yourself is how can God be so amazing to have put so many awesome people in your life to guide you, to love and show you that life is worth living. Everyday we wake up we forget to notice the precious things in life that brought us this far and made us who we are we forget to take time to realize the beauty that surrounds us and the simple things we've been blessed with. Everyday til' I graduate I have made it my mission to get up everyday positive ready to start the day rain or shine. I plan to be happy and not defeated by the obstacles of the world. I was watching behind the music with Jennifer Hudson and it just renewed my passion to seek God first in everything I do and everything will work according to his "riches and glory." My faith has carried me this far and I know will always be there to catch me when I fall and cheer me on in my triumphs.
This a new me and this is my new beginning!
#winning lmao

"To Whom This May Concern"

....so far I have had a rather gratifying day. I have come to terms with my demons and have finally found the truth that I learned doesn't lie so deep within. You see this whole week I've been mopping around complaining about things that really have no relvance in progressing my life forward I mean who am I shrink "so that other people won't feel insecure around me(you). We are all meant to shine, as children do." This quote happens to come from Marianne Williamson's rendition called OUR DEEPEST FEAR, yea so maybe I dont always say or do the right thing but the truth is that doesn't mean that you give up and just throw in the towel on life because believe it or not as soon as you give in the towel life is still continuing on with or without you. Shoot I don't know about you but I will not be left behind in this journey waiting MY journey that is life. I use the moment to acknowledge life in all its beauty and I stand in awe of the life that GOD has given me, blessed to be able to say that I'm still standing. It's interesting because I never thought that writing on some dumba** blogspot would be so releaving but it truly has opened me up to a whole other side of myself that I always knew was there but have kept hidden for so long. Yes I love people, the ones who love me back, the ones that cause me pain, the ones that I have hurt, but the truth is I can't continue to let myself get consumed by ignorance and malice that I myself fall apart. Sometimes growing up means moving on and figuring out that life is more than hiding under your makeup stained pillow w/ Mr. Burger nestled under your arms yes its time to turn off the music and wiggle your toes out of bed and walk out into your destiny ... your life awaits GET UP AND SEIZE THE DAY!!! Well until next time I love you all, GOD is love! :)