Wonder??!!??

I wonder do you think of me? Cause I think about the years I have invested the time emotion and energy and wonder is it worth, it is it worth it to sweat, cry, pant and want to share your life with someone. It is, it's worth it when you find that person that completes you that has become your everything and more without them that other half that soulmate most of us feel lost confused and alone but God hasn't created us to be alone he has already ordained that person that will radically change the course of our life forever it's up to us to make the decision between the ones that stay and make us radically change for the better and those that only bring ya down we have. We make it our prerogative to want more and demand it for we deserve nothing less than the best I sit here wondering how I know all this and remain stuck then I remember I'm apart of real life and it just so happens just cause I write it doesn't mean I don't live it my teachers all throughout college always told me I could write but that I had to stop writing like a journal but I couldn't help it I like to express my thoughts and emotions through this style of writing it makes me who I am so why have I let people redefine me. I don't want to get back to who was, I just want to move on from here to become the beat me and the first step I have taken is loving myself and the skin I'm in.
Blessings.... :)

Smile

There's a song I heard recently by Kirk Franklin that goes something like this; through the rainy days and blue skies SMILE even though it hurts, SMILE cause today's a new day and waking up today I couldn't help but Smile. Like Tyrese mentioned in his new book the past is behind you today you have the choice to live, thrive be positive, and go after the things you want in life. God is just too good and merciful he will never leave or forsake you but we are truly our own worse enemy instead of waking up ready, we wake up already feeling defeated and blue because of something that happen yesterday. Well I come to tell you yesterday ain't coming back but today right now with the future minutes ahead of you you can and will be great if you can just chose to Smile cause "today's a new day". :)
Be blessed ....

Mind Over Matter

I don't know what it is but right now I'm at peace. I'm at peace with knowing that even though my future is not set in stone my mind is right and my heart is ready to absorb. Ugh well this blog will have to wait at the current moment I am distracted by my bf and his friend muff to be continued..

Train Ride Home!!

On the train headed back home to sleep and prepare for an epic spring break. Too juiced and excited for the adventure that awaits ahead; my future, my destiny, my purpose. Ready for me to obtain within my grasp, whose takin the ride with me? Only time shall tell ... been on this ride for a minute trying to figure out the true meaning of love from all angles. I have truly learned and grown through every rollercoaster and triumph I can only imagine what God has in store for me as I continue to seek him first and understand him more and more everyday. As everyday gets closer and closer to graduation I affirm the things that I seek in life.

No Judgement!!

How can you try and fix others if you're broke? Actually stop trying to fix others and learn to let others grow and do the same and you'll begin to see you're life in light of others and become the best version of you.
Be blessed :)

Time Out

Some days do you just sit and wonder when will I get my big break, doesn't life get easier, why do I have to go through this but the real questions you should be asking yourself is how can God be so amazing to have put so many awesome people in your life to guide you, to love and show you that life is worth living. Everyday we wake up we forget to notice the precious things in life that brought us this far and made us who we are we forget to take time to realize the beauty that surrounds us and the simple things we've been blessed with. Everyday til' I graduate I have made it my mission to get up everyday positive ready to start the day rain or shine. I plan to be happy and not defeated by the obstacles of the world. I was watching behind the music with Jennifer Hudson and it just renewed my passion to seek God first in everything I do and everything will work according to his "riches and glory." My faith has carried me this far and I know will always be there to catch me when I fall and cheer me on in my triumphs.
This a new me and this is my new beginning!
#winning lmao

Why Cheat?

So I’m simply here to ask why do people cheat? Is it that temptation is just too strong? Is it a secret desire to want what we can’t have or want something someone else already has? Is it some hidden insecurity that we justify with the malicious of making sure that our self-needs are satisfied? The truth is whatever it is plain and simple it ain't right!! Even people who are in the act (maybe as I write) know it just ain't right there is no justification for the sticky mess that you have just sucked yourself into and there is no freedom in knowing that you have gotten away with such foolish behavior, the truth is cheating effects everyone involved and that’s the bottom line. So you're probably thinking why do I write so knowledgeably TRUTH BE TOLD I HAVE CHEATED yeah that’s they plain truth I have cheated my friends, my self and worse of all the one person that I confided in. the thing is that if I lived with the guilt of cheating forever I would not be able to be as happy as a I am today but as I sit watching Carrie on Sex in the City jungle between two men I think back to the conversation I had with my friend on Friday about my guilt and how I feel that even though my acquaintance doesn't know that me and her man got down for a while (NOT SEX) I have a sense of peace within myself because the truth is god has forgiven me even before it happened he just needed me to acknowledge it for myself and move on and honestly I have even; though I look her in thek eye and still feel guilt I can live with myself because the truth is I serve a loving God and he knows I sin but he is always there to catch me when I fall and this isolated incident has only made me stronger. Now I face the demon again because the guy I cheated with has been separated from me but when were together everyone knows no one can deny the connection that defines us as "friends" we have a friendship like no other, strong even with time and full of laughter and roller coasters. I don't know why I can go two months not seeing him and the day we see each other it’s like we have to pry each other apart in order to move away from each other why does the force of nature draw us so close to each other what is the purpose...well I may never know but to my friend..acquaintance whatever from the bottom of my heart I AM TRULY SORRY if the shoe was on the other foot only god knows what I would do but if someday you do find out I truly hope you can forgive me well I sign off for now keep your heads up and god first. 

Happy blogging and much luv.

-Dee